Last Night's Sex and Domination

Warning: This post is sexually explicit. If you're offended by sexual details, hit your back button. If you're under 18, go watch this video of kittens frolicking instead.

Last night I got dominated for the first time in a while. It was oh so nice. It wasn't that we hadn't wanted to do D/s (or at least on my part!). We'd been busy with a newborn, what can I say?

After giving birth, you're supposed to wait 6 weeks to have sex. Even now though, I'm still too sore down there to consider having actual sex. My Dom has been very patient and understanding, but I know it's been a while and it's hard on him.

Last night around 4 am we were up feeding the baby. Well, I was feeding the baby and he was sitting with me. We were watching more Scrubs to keep ourselves awake. I was feeling oddly cuddly and needy, which is rare for me and he loves when it happens. I kept wanting to hold his hand and tell him I'd missed him lately. We'd barely gotten to see each other the night before; he got home from work at 5:30 and my parents came over for dinner and then I went to bed, a tired mommy.

When we got into bed, we cuddled and I could tell he was hard. But this has been a more common occurence lately ;) so I just ignored it and assumed we were going to fall asleep. In fact, I was burrowing happily into my warm pillow with just that goal in mind when he leaned forward and whispered throatily in my ear, "I want you to suck my cock."

It made me shiver. It had been so long since he'd dominated me...

But I wasn't sure if this was a "Do this now" command or just a "I want this but we're going to bed so I just thought I'd let you know so you feel wanted." So I waited.

He whispered, "Do you understand?"

I'm trying to work on being more submissive, you know. Not needing to fight him every step of the way. So I chose not to fight and I just nodded. Shivered and nodded. And waited. What was he going to do?

"I want you to suck my cock," he repeated in a low voice. "You're going to come over here, and suck my cock, and act like you like it." Another pause. "Do you understand?"

I swallowed hard. Nodded again.

He whispered in my ear, "I'm going to get ready. You take off your shirt and then come over here."

A whimper of protest from me. Okay, so this was a tiny bit of a test. I didn't want to give in too easily. He likes me when I'm fiesty. *wink*

His voice was low and rough in my ear. "Do you understand?"

I nodded. Swallowed. Whispered, "Yes."

It was so nice to have this happening again. To be told what to do. To give in to the submissive feeling. To do it.

I obeyed him. I rolled over, took my shirt off, and placed it by my pillow because I knew I'd be cold later. He pulled off his pants. I lowered my head, kissed his thigh, kissed his stomach. I took him in my mouth. I was gratified to hear him moan and enjoy it more than he normally does, no doubt because it has been so long for us. I tried to remember to run my hands up and down his thighs, stoke him, and squeeze his butt, to provide extra stimulation, because I enjoy the touching aspect of sex and so I hoped he would, too.

Eventually, I stopped. "My mouth hurts," I explained. Sometimes my jaw gets sore and starts to pop at night, and that seemed to be happening now.

He could have forced me to go on, but he didn't. But he did roll me over on my back and squeeze my breasts and kiss and lick them.

My whole body tensed up.

"What's wrong?" he whispered.

I didn't answer.

"Does it hurt?"

I shuddered. "No," I explained with my eyes shut tight. "It just feels weird... because of the baby." I hadn't been touched sexually in so long. It felt strange to have my nipples sucked by someone other than our infant. For the last several weeks, she's been the only one whose mouth has been there. My breasts didn't feel sexual anymore. I was having a hard time transitioning back to "sexual touch" from "nursing, mothering" touch in my brain.

He grabbed me. Slapped me a little. It hurt. I gasped.

"I'm taking them back now," he said. "For now. Do you understand?"

It was so sexy. I could only nod. He touched me with his hands, his face, his tongue, his mouth. He roughly pushed me down onto the bed, he grabbed my hands and pinned them above my head, he was rough with me. I liked it. Even when I didn't.

And it was oh, so relaxing. I felt calm and at peace. I felt great anticipation, as I waited to see what he would do.

He commanded me forcefully to put my hands above my head. "Above your head!" he commanded again. I hastened to obey. My breath came in short gasps. I felt turned on for the first time in a long time. He used my breasts until he came.

I reached up to grab his head and hold him. He normally likes that.

"Above your head!" he repeated. I quickly obeyed. I hadn't meant to disobey him; I'd thought he was finished.

He waited to see if I'd done as he commanded. Then he relented, saying, "Now you can hug me." Being forced to wait made it seem even more special, like hugging him was a privelege I'd earned.

We held each other. We laughed and discussed how great it had been. I felt happy to have made him so happy, and relaxed because I'd been dominated.

We cleaned up and climbed back into bed. I snuggled into him as tight as I could, feeling closer to him than I had in a long time. "I just want to burrow into you!" I said. He laughed and burrowed his head into my neck. He kissed the back of my neck and briefly rubbed my back.

"I feel nice," I murmured.

"You do feel nice."

"No," I laughed, "I mean... I feel good."

He laughed and nuzzled me. "Good."

As we drifted to sleep, I murmured, "Thank you."

I thought he might already be asleep, but he answered against the back of my neck. "For what?"

"For dominating me," I whispered sleepily.

He chuckled and hugged me tighter.

"You're welcome."