Even though we are currently living apart while he starts a new job and I finish my old one and get our things packed, when we are together I find my Dom is being even more controlling of me. Sometimes I complain, but I am slowly growing used to it and accepting it. He wants to take our relationship to a deeper D/s dynamic, and I'm basically adjusting as it happens. He isn't asking me, but I have asked for more D/s in the past and so he knows I am okay with it on some level, even if outwardly I sometimes struggle against the control.
From long-distance, domination for us is very small. I know some couples who do great and creative long-distance D/s, such as a Mistress who forces her male sub to spank himself 150 times with the paddle and document it for her with pictures or webcam. My husband and I don't do anything that intense. I've simply noticed little things, like him bossing me around more over the phone. When I pout and say, "You're being bossy!" he just grins and doesn't answer. I've also noticed that when we are together, he tells me things like, "You're mine" more often than he used to. I really enjoy it. On some level, if I hear it enough, I start to believe it. I may pout and complain and tell him I'm my own woman, but he doesn't give in and eventually he always wins... either by simple, calm waiting or, when I keep being stubborn, my pinching my nipples until I writhe and tell him he's right. As I drove home today he told me on the phone that he'd enjoyed sex this weekend when we were together even more than usual. I asked him why, and he said it was because he felt like he was "taking" me both times. This is a fantasy that really turns him on (and it's not bad for me either, heh heh). I think this is since I'm 1.) pregnant and 2.) far from him, I feel and act a lot needier when we are together. This makes me act clingy and needy instead of stubborn and independent. When I act like I need his strength and masculinity (which I do), he reacts by feeling more turned on. I liked it because he felt, physically and emotionally, more masculine and in control. As a result of my neediness and femininity, his erection was stronger and he held me tighter and kissed me more passionately. Sex felt different than it ever had: he was holding me really tightly and kissing me harder than ever before. It was an awesome feeling when he came and gasped into my mouth as our tongues met. Even after sex was over, I kept wanting him to kiss me like that forever. We hadn't made out that ferociously since we were dating. So that's my story for this weekend. I feel like we are heading in a good place. He is still being just as loving, kind, and forgiving as he has always been, but he's just being a bit more stern and commanding and I'm feeling free to be more emotional and show my weaknesses more. I'm finally home. The laundry is on and the cats were happy I was back--they hate it when I leave so often now. They'd run out of water while I was away, even though I filled the dish the day I left, so they have basically been taking turns gulping out of the fresh water dish since my return. I'm hoping to relax some before the work week starts, and then see my honey soon. Au revoir!
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